Chrissy Teigen says 'I've let people down' as she shares alcohol relapse struggle

has bravely opened up on her relapse after being sober for four years, telling fans she is sorry to "let a lot of you down". The model, who is married to singer , g, but admitted she has let the "f***ing beast" back into her life.

She admitted her initial decision to quit booze came after a doctor pal gifted her a sobriety book for her birthday. She gave it up in the immediate aftermath of a cyberbullying scandal in which she was accused of having told the then-teenage Courtney Stodden over private message to die by suicide.

However, despite being four years sober, the Lip Sync Battle star has candidly revealed "I don't know what I'm doing" as she opened up on the feelings she is having.

Chrissy took to to share the honest message, while also promoting her latest podcast with Holly Whittaker, the author of the book that she reveals helped change her life. Taking to her profile, Chrissy wrote: "Oh man. I’ve been dreading today’s podcast release since the moment we shot it. And that has nothing to do with my incredible guest - @holly.

"Holly Whitaker changed my life, changed my perspective and changed how I view the f***ing beast that is alcohol. But to have to admit to all of you: I let it back into my life. to let a lot of you down, oh I feel it deeply."

She continued: "I was so proud every time one of you told me on the street that Holly and I made you want to rethink drinking, reframe drinking. I still am. The truth is, I don’t know what I’m doing. I one hundred per cent know I like myself better sober.

"I one hundred percent know I get more done, I absolutely feel better in my body without it. And I am one hundred per cent p***ed that I can’t be normal and have a cocktail with my husband on vacay without it turning into 8 and feeling like s***."

The mum-of-four admitted she no longer wants to feel she needs to drink and confessed she hates that the thought of maybe having a drink "can consume me some days". However, she admits her road to recovery is a process and believes she has already changed for the better.

"I am deeply aware of where this can go if I let it," she wrote. "I guess my plan right now is to continue to be mindful with it. I can go to a concert sober and have the greatest time ever. I can avoid absinthe at the Ren Faire and be so abbbbsolutely full of joy"

"Photos of my kid’s birthday parties are no longer me with bleary, sleepy drinking eyes. And I am proud of that. But I still know my relationship with alcohol just isn’t normal and never will be."

She finished by thanking her fans for letting her discuss her sobriety journey so publicly before she told the sober community, "I am still so, so proud of you."

Back in 2021, Chrissy praised Holly Whitaker's book titled Quit Like a Woman: The Radical Choice to Not Drink in a Culture Obsessed with Alcohol for helping her quit. And in 2017, she explained her battle with the booze in an interview with Cosmopolitan.

She told the publication: "I was, point blank, just drinking too much. I got used to being in hair and makeup and having a glass of wine. Then that glass of wine would carry over into me having one before the awards show. And then a bunch at the awards show.

"And then I felt bad for making kind of an a** of myself to people that I really respected."

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